Ok so this seems a bit extreme but this is what it has come to. At 34 years old I have to start a journal. It seems like a logical thing to do but none the less I kind of feel I’m being transported back to my formative years as a broody adolescent.
So the big question in Who, Why, How?
Well I know who I am so this bit seems a little redundant but maybe this will serve as a start line for who I want to be.
Who
I am a husband, father, son, entrepreneur, chronic dreamer, idea vomiter, firefighter, sailor, traveler, adventurer, explorer, drinker, runner.
In a little more detail:
I am a husband who does not appreciate his wife enough.
A father who struggles with the idea of being a parent let along getting over myself and really diving into being a parent.
A son to a mother who is also my business partner and to a father who doesn’t get what I am trying to do most of the time.
A struggling entrepreneur who can’t spell entrepreneur without spell check.
A big dreamer fighting a constant battle to figure out what is the right dream to follow.
An idea vomiter who thinks he has the next big idea every day….especially after a can of monster (the ideas are really amazing sometimes but I just have to put them aside to keep focus).
A Firefighter who really doesn’t enjoy being just a number in a union crowd where effort and enthusiasm are not rewarded.
A sailor who loves to be on the water with all his soul.
A traveler, adventure and explorer that needs to get feel the intrigue and excitement of new places and experiences.
A drinker of too much beer and wine as I’m not sure if I drink them to enjoy them or just kidding myself that I have a drinking problem.
Finally a runner who is at peace when on a trail with the sun in my face, the smell of the forest in the air and the sound of nothing but the birds all around.
Why
This is a long list but the coles notes is really to document my struggles, my victories and to stick with something. I have been told I write pretty well but I need to become more comfortable with it and also to start typing with more than 2 fingers.
Above all this if for me. It is a way for me to share with myself the issues of the day and to spend some time thinking about me and how to make me…better.
I want to set some clear goals and have a trail of entries where I can read my progress and look back at the fact I have had wins even though it feels that I have not.
This is also a period in my life where I feel I have a lot of struggles. A lot of different areas that need focus but I don’t seem to be making traction on anything. I was listening to Essentialisme on AudioBooks.com today and I realized that I need to less. A lot less and Greg McKeown the author suggested keeping a journal to help combat the overwhelming urge to do too much.
How
Simply to sit in front of the computer for 15-20minutes every evening just to document what I have done each day and to keep track of the problems, struggles and above all the solutions and the victories to show my progress.
I choose to do this on a blog and to write in this style (to an audience) as I may one day choose to let people see this. I feel it might help others to overcome the same issues.
Times up…… to work tomorrow (Firefighting) so best get some sleep. What to make sure I am fresh to do start on the right foot with a miracle morning 🙂
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